Hey i used to feel like u do cuple yrs ago. I felt there was no purpose to my life and that everyday was just a constant battle, i hated my life i lost my mum when i was 7 n my da cudnt handle 6 kids so he left n hes an alcoholic i never saw him for 6 yrs.
I felt that everyone i loved was gonna leave me when i was 15 i overdosed as i cudnt stand living with my family my brothers were always fighting n wudnt stop untill basicly 1 of them cudnt get up n it terrified me.
My brother had a real bad temper n used to beat me up n wud hit me even more coz i was crying he didnt care he wud punch me so hard n he didnt feel ne remorse well after he did bt that dnt make it ne mbetter.
I started starving myself wen i ws 16 i was overw8 n my family had no trouble of lettin me know that by calling me fat and stuff, my diet soon turned into an eating disorer. When i was 18 i started to get it under controll, thats coz i didnt live with my family anymore i moved in wiv my b.f n he helped me thru it i dnt think i wud of got better if i had stayed with my family id of got 10 times worse id prob be in hosp feeding thru a tube, neways i thought that my life wud never get better that i was doomed to feel lonley all my life but thing do change when u least expect it u have to rely on only urself if u dnt wanna get hurt thats wat i found out. Iv learned that once u realise u dnt need anyone to rely on but urself and u r happy with urself then u can b happ. I used to think i wud b nothing without my b.f but im learning that even tho i deeply love him i cnt rely on him as i need myself to rely on coz 1 day he may not b here for me to rely on him then id be stuck but i think i can b happpy with me to rely on.
So what tips do u have for this diet?
When im hungry n dnt wanna eat too much thru the day i drink tea it takes the hunger away.
Loadsa luv cloe xx
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